Finished unpacking everything. All I have left is the new pots and pans and my suitcase.
Need to put all the empty boxes out in the storage to save for moving, no sense in throwing them away!
I'd like to play my wii tonight, but I also want to go to bed soon, I might try to do that in a few, not sure it'll work though.
Just checked my Macy's schedule, UGH.
- Weds: 7-11:30
- Thurs: 7-11:30
- Friday: 7-11:30
- Saturday 2:45-11:30
- Sunday 10:45-7:15
WTF ARE YOU SERIOUS.
That is going to fucking kill me.
Today we were told there's a huge possibility of MANDATORY overtime @ the DMV on Dec 12th. Just 4 hours, but still. The $$ will be nice. We'll see if they really go through with it.
Ugh one of the cats just took a stank-ass-poo.
Lisa and Nick are going to take my old tv, yay i dont have to try and sell it on craigslist. Only asking $40 for it anyways. So hopefully they come and get it in the next few days and I can deposit that $$, I also have $10 in rebates from SCJohnson that I need to go put in the bank tomorrow! I keep forgetting, well, I keep over sleeping in the AM and rushing to work.
So, it's 9pm, wonder if I could fall asleep anytime soon.....
New tv, dvd recorder/vcr, and wii!
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are we supposed to start with yays or nays?
let's start with the nays and end on a happy note:
- i've felt like hibernating lately...i'm not excited about winter. even though i just had four days off for thanksgiving, i can't seem to get enough sleep lately.
- finding dean to be more of a hassle than he's worth, at least today i am.
- i've been a little low on cash lately - matt moving out really put a damper on my income and i'm still getting used to not having that extra money coming in. doesn't probably help much that i'm going out twice as much.
- i hated that i had to e-mail him about his mail. but seriously. why wouldn't you get your mail forwarded? that would be like the first thing i did.
yays
- amber's coming over tonight to watch my sex and the city dvd's, eat salad, drink beer and sew her christmas presents. i'm working on my christmas cards.
- friday is the feeding america fundraiser at the 5th ward pub. i'm going with liz...maybe there will be some generous and thoughtful single men there.
- in general, i am doing pretty well...last night was a tough night when it came to matt. i haven't had one in a while. i do still miss him. part of me still wishes he'd come back.
- i have a job, i got a yoga teaching job, my family and i are in generally good health. my apartment is consistently clean and tidy now that there isn't a man there.*
side note:
*it was a little weird having dean at my house on sunday. it was weird having another man that wasn't matt in my apartment in a situation that wasn't entirely platonic. it kind of felt platonic given his sleepiness, but you know what i mean. i almost felt like i was doing something wrong - although matt apparently didn't feel like he was doing anything wrong when he cheated on me.
so much for ending on a happy note.
happy tuesday.
i had to send matt an e-mail last night. we broke up 5 and a half weeks ago and i'm STILL getting his pay stubs, rolling stone magazines, parking tickets, etc...
i told him that he has to get his mail re-routed or forwarded or whatever. i told him that it's kind of a daily reminder that he's left me and unless he's coming home, he needs to take care of that.
i haven't heard back from him yet - monday nights he goes to art bar to see tom. he has off on tuesdays and will probably check his e-mail around 10 or 11.
i'll let you know if he comes back with a melodramatic response, as i expect he will.
p.s. dean is sweating me...seriously. he called me last night (acknowledging the fact that he screwed up all weekend and asking AGAIN if i'd let him make it up to me) and then he texted me this morning. apparently he was up early so he sent me a good morning text and to tell me that he'll be thinking about me all day, etc.
i need some space. he can't be calling/texting me everyday but i feel bad ignoring it. i'm glad he's going to arizona next week. i need a breather. he's not my boyfriend and i'm determined to keep my options open for a little while.
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...so grab a cup of coffee.
thanksgiving was good - nothing too exciting to note. i met up with amber after the festivities and had a few drinks.
friday i spent the day in my pajamas on the couch. i was getting over that head cold so all day on thanksgiving and on friday, i felt like my head was going to explode from all the pressure. it sucked so bad.
so here's where i get annoyed:
saturday i had plans with dean all week and we were going to go to the art museum, grab dinner and hang out the rest of the night.
i was supposed to pick him up at 2:30. at 1:45 he calls me and says: "i'm sorry, we'll have to do the art museum a different time. something's come up and i'll call you in a little while." i didn't know if that meant an hour, or six, so i waited for an hour and then made plans with amber. i was over at her house at about 3:20, with the beer and pizza that i had picked up for dean and i.
i sent him a text before i left the house, saying that i don't know what's going on, but that i wasn't going to wait by the phone all night, so i was heading to amber's.
i got a phone call at about 4:15 from dean. i didn't answer it because i was pissed - i found out on sunday that what happened was that his mom's friend is doing him a favor and helping him get re-trained in something else because of his workman's comp thing (long story) and she can't do it out of her office, so she has to do it in her free time, and this is when she could meet. the message didn't say all that - he just told me to call him back so he could explain.
i didn't.
then i got a text at about 5:30 - asking me not to be mad, and to please call him so he could explain. i texted him back saying i wasn't mad, just disappointed, especially because i had no explanation. i told him i made plans with amber to see camera obscura tonight and that maybe he could make it up to me sometime next week...i added a smiley face so as not to seem entirely pissed. he said that he was so sorry, that it would never happen again and that he promises to make it up to me.
i said that it was unfortunate that we couldn't get together because i had been looking forward to it all week, and then he called - again...i didn't answer the phone - again. he sent ANOTHER text message apologizing...etc.
valerie from a few years ago - or even a few months ago - would've waited by the phone for him to call, and totally blew it off like it wasn't a big deal, when in reality, i was bummed and mad about it. thanks to amber, she kept me in check. no matter how much i wanted to see him saturday night, i didn't. he has to know that isn't acceptable to me any longer and i don't have the patience for it. so he sat home alone saturday night, and i went to see a band with amber.
this story will continue in a moment, but i'm trying to keep this in chronological order...
i called dean as i had promised sunday afternoon and he didn't answer.
sunday afternoon i met with the group where i'll be teaching yoga. i'm totally excited. looks like i'll have two classes on wednesday nights and possibly one really early on saturday mornings. $20-$25 per class - decent extra money. the people are really nice. we're having an open house on january 2nd and we're opening it up the following week! i'm really excited to finally get to teaching. i won't technically be certified by then, but i'm confident that i'll do fine.
while i was meeting with this group, dean called back, and i missed his call. i texted him, saying that i was sorry i missed his call and i was wondering if he was free tonight. he said yes, i told him i'd pick him up at 6 and we could go back to my house, eat some pizza and have a few beers. after the meeting, i stopped at the store and picked up beer and pizza - again (since i brought it to amber's the night before) - and picked him up at 6.
we went back to my house - he didn't really like the pizza i picked up, ate a piece and a half. he had a beer and a half and at like 8:15 or so he said he was going to call it a night. wtf? he said he was really tired from watching his niece all day and hasn't been sleeping well. he was falling asleep on the couch.
so then i drove him all the way back home.
at about 11:15 i got a text, he was apologizing for being such a bore, but he's just been really drained lately, etc. he told me to let him know when i'm free this week so we can get together before he goes to see his sister in arizona on monday.
i told him i'd talk to him later and that he should try to get some sleep. normally there'd be some *kisses* or xoxo nonsense, but i left that out.
problem: there shouldn't be this much complication and drama this early into seeing eachother - i know we dated a few years back, but seriously.
my argument: at least he recognizes when he's being an idiot, which is more than i can say for most.
problem: how much longer do i put up with this? or how much of this do i let go before this just isn't worth it any more?
i'm running very hot and cold on this now. not sure if i even want to make plans with him for later in the week. things were so (for lack of a better word) "electric" the first few times we hung out. this weekend was just a little ridiculous and disappointing. i know no man will be perfect, but come on...it shouldn't be this hard.
i'm thinking about calling it quits on this one but i've never been good at that. i guess i wouldn't know how to go about it. i suppose honesty is the best policy, right?
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2:00 am and I just got in bed.
Made it home, woulda been sooner, but there was construction, and LOTS of cops out btwn ft collins and denver so I behaved myself on that stretch, no point in getting a ticket at the end of the trip!
All the kitties have come out to see me and they dont hate me! yay!
Everything has been unloaded from the car and is safely inside, all doors will be locked from now on at all times!!
Had to fix the freezer when I got back but it should be okay by morning I need to call them and tell them i figured out what the problem is.
Josh left a brand new down comforter and 2 new fluffy hotel pillows for me (he snagged'em from the hotel he works at hehehe)
Ellie slept a majority of the way home, but it seems she may still be tired so we're off to bed, gotta be up in 5 hours to get ready for work, oh joy!
Will catch up on VOX and everything else internet related over the next day or so hopefully!
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